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YY YZ JR
You and I, Together; Forever. (:
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Me Love Me Life.
Love Song
Love Song - Sara Bareilles credits
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i need to take a break! to get away from work and problems! but, who can i call along with, other than love? *shrugs.... it's like, nothing's the same anymore. yyy  im feeling alitttle inadequate now. i have this new colleague with the same age as me. after working with her for only 2 times, i realised she's really accomplised and precise when it comes to work. we're of the same age, but we have different productivity level. i've been trying and improving though. i guess i still needa try harder. ' ;) try harderrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr......................... exam's in a few days time. last round of battle. wish me luck! yyy  happy belated birthday to Singapore! lol, i feel a lil remorseful for the late wishing. it was a special occasion, but that day didnt turn out nice for me and love. ): we went out with 'the friends'. i think 'went out' is an overstatement, becoz normally when you're meeting your friends you'll spend time together; shopping talking bonding etc. throughout the day which love and i made vacant just so we could meet up with'em...we were expecting a more 'get to know' & 'catching up' session. since, it's been ages since 'the friends' and i contacted. and it was love's first time meeting'em! little did we expect, more 'friends' were there. i didnt like what happened. if i had known earlier, i wouldn't bring love and myself there. the rest of the time, we were walking on our own, and we barely even talked. -.- love and i were planning for a more meaningful and memorable day out instead. for you, we put it behind, showed up for your 'date' and compromised whatever you wanna do. im pretty sure we're nice enough, aren't we? when finally, 'the friends' and us bid goodbye. OUR LONG AWAITED FREE TIME. wanted to catch the fireworks but missed it. well, couldn't do much at that time and we ended our day by taking the chock-full MRT back home. 'maybe we need a lil more time to adjust back' was the thought i had until i received the messages from 'the friends'. chop fallen. the whole 'date' thingy was a cover up, it's only a cache for your real motive. what you requested was simply asinine. to you it may be just for fun. but think, the consequences. tsk. sincerely i wanted to help, coz i take you honestly. guess im a twerp to have believed you. i thought our friendship can have a new beginning. but you aren't opening up. neither am i, after this had happened. PS : everything that day was definitely uncalled for. end of rant. caught 'Where Got Ghost'. i thought it's another doltish movie again in the first place. turns out, it's hilarious with some horror scenes that scared the hell outta everyone. another 'Uniquely Singapore.' (: yyy  been away. as usual, was woking schooling studying, dating and stressing. in the midst of this period, i'd learnt things, figured out some things and was enlightened. i call it..' The Independence Training.' every bits and pieces i came across are valuable lessons which bring me to the next level. (every area of me life) well, i finally know why do people age so fast when you reached a certain age. you have to consider all consequences and areas when making a decision. that not only applies to work, but everything in your everyday routine. think before you speak, think before you act, think before you make a decision. blablablablabla..... it's annoying and tiring having to always think like that. but end of the day, i guess we all know it'll help us make the right or at least, safe choice..saving us all the trouble to attend to problems. tsk.. this is yet again, another idiotic soliloquy of mine. so long. yyy
so lately i've been keeping myself rather occupied. i watched BOF (Korean V.), Star Wedding Variety ( only watched the lettuce couple part). addicted to Sims 3 as usual. working, yes..school, not really. anyways, occupied as in....i turn in around 4am, 5am everyday and wake up early the next day! ): after months, i'd finally know what's causing me toothache/gum ache! took an X-ray of my lower left jaw and saw my wisdom tooth clashing against my last teeth. ): of coz, there's also a decay. i hope my wisdom tooth doesnt come out any sooner! Bro just went for his operation and it hurts alot! most importantly, restrictions from a wide range of delicious food! ): Love was sweet! after my dental appointment we caught 'Harry Potter'. was anticipating it since long ago! booked 2 tickets online especially, just to get good seats.. was expecting it to be staggering or something, but turns out to be a total disappointment! tsk... Love and I were window shopping in PS and happened to stop by this 'Toy Catching Machines' area. i'd never tried those before coz you know, it's a total waste of money. i'd rather buy from any gift shops if i ever wanted a soft toy. (which probably won't happen.) we ended up playing, becoz there's this pink bear with claws and we were thinking it'd be good if junior can have it. spent 10bucks. it was my first attempt, not sure Love's. but we managed to win it!! :D (i still think it's a waste of money though.) it was a great day! trust me, we haven't enjoyed ourselves the WHOLE DAY for quite some time already. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D good times always end fast. just before i'd started enjoying myself, assignment deadlines are approaching. =/ as im typing these...im stifling sneezes behind tissue papers. this is so irritating! like a running tap, my nose has been super busy since this morning. and my skin is peeling already! it's gonna sound scary..but i find it kinda funny. coz everyone at home is down with a cold. except for JR. school's started..today the third day of school..didnt attend coz i don't think im in a good condition to. anyone has any solutions for curing my nose? it's super duber annoying! something random....... i love TYZ! muack! :D P.S: im so gonna get Dettol's hand sanitiser. yyy you know how people always set target or expectations for themselves? the biggest and most common one will be, What Type Of Person I Wanna Be or What Type Of Person I Dont Wanna Be. maybe not many of you think about these before, but i do...most of the time. im still 17, going 18.. not much experience in life yet..but the things i'd learnt are great things that changed me for the better. not very good, but better. (: the expectations for myself are.... I dont wanna be an OL, becoz they have weird mindsets and the way they treat people are weird and offensive. and they have ugly figures. (becoz most of TBS customers are OL, and i worked in an office before.) I dont wanna be judgemental and be egoistic. I dont wanna be unreasonable, childish and rude;offensive. I wanna be the nice person in everyone's hearts. and so on.... but what i hadn't realised is that im slowly growing into the kind of person i dont wanna be. in fact, im not even an OL, and im beginning to behave in that manner. maybe even worse. and so, i hereby apologise for that crude remark i made on OLs. i said i dont wanna be judgemental and egoistic. but i end up making comments on other people and express myself in a proud manner. funny how i always say, ' most people who have higher education look down on people. they think they know it all just becoz they have high qualifications. how bad...' again, what i hadn't realised is, i am already becoming like them. but im not saying i have high qualifications though. i think upon reading what's typed above, clearly shows to you im a hypocrite. today, something took place. am not gonna say what. it's kinda private. it's the first time all along in my life i face such situations. a straight face to face thing. which really woke me up. before that thing took place, i swear i was backing myself up 100%. was so confident with myself that im 100% right. after the whole thing ended. well, in the process, i already started to realise though. i was so bad. i'd done mean things. said mean stuffs. simply childish and unreasonable. for all these years i've been trying to find an answer. be it incidents that took place years ago or now.. ' why do things always end up sour, whenever im involved?' true enough, it takes 2 hands to clap. all parties are at fault for whatever happened. but, if only i had known better and be less sensitive + defensive... at least the whole matter would end off peacefully. Love always tell me im childish. i hate it when people calls me childish. i think they've absolutely no rights to lecture me.. LOL. but now, i think...there is always a reason why people give you names. and you'd better find out why if you're uncomfortable with it. i know in my previous post i was super confident about im just being ME. yes, it's true. i really am being myself all the time. but at the same time, im changing which i did not realise all along.. awhile, im being this Me. then, im being that Me. alittle of the environments im in. alittle of the influence im getting. alittle of self-contradiction. alittle of egoistic. alittle of pride. alittle of the freedom i have... adds it up to the bad path i chose. at some point, we need to admit our mistakes and learn from it, so we dont commit further and dont repeat it again. yyy |